58 days

All too quickly, my *Dad has been taken away from me. In just two short months he was diagnosed and overrun with pancreatic cancer.
I’m sad.
For my Mum: a widow at 54, planning on an early retirement to share a good many years with him; those missed opportunities, experiences and adventures – I’m devastated for her loss.
For my husband: who didn’t get to know my Dad that well and has therefore missed out on the enrichment that he would have experienced just by spending time with him.
For his family: his parents are heartbroken, his sister hollow with loss.
For his students, past and present: we’ve received so many tributes and stories of how he inspired so many people; he showed compassion, humanity and belief in all.
For Dad: cheated out of so much life, when he had so much more to give and do.
And for me. For all of these reasons, and more.

And, despite all the pain and injustice, he was so dignified and accepting of his condition. I will always be in awe of him.

*(step, but that’s a technicality)

Tolerance and balance

I’m not a watcher of morning tv, but in researching something else I discovered some clips of Katie Hopkins being interviewed. Now, I know they just pull her into these discussions because she plays the controversial card, but the video below has made my blood boil for a number of reasons.

It’s a shame that Rachel started off on the back foot – she could have been much more positive about being a plus-sized woman, I know I’d have responded quite differently on a few questions. However, towards the end she started to hold her own.

As a plus-size woman: I have never struggled to find a partner, and never felt pressured to change my size to please that other person; my hatred of going to a gym  is not based on laziness and is not an excuse not to exercise, it’s the misguided and judgemental looks and opinions I receive from others that put me off that form of exercise; I’m not in denial – I know exactly what I weigh and what dress size I am, and I’m sure that’s the same for women in general, and I don’t use it as an excuse to eat what I want and not be in control.

The show also did nothing to support the argument – some images of a variety of shapes and sizes of beautiful people would have been helpful.

Can we please have some balanced media coverage on this? Our social norms are skewed so much by advertising, talk shows and misjudged remarks, it’s no surprise that probably 99% of women out there want to lose (or gain) a few lbs.

Have you read/watched some balanced, sensible coverage of weight -v- happiness issues? Please do share…

We all know what we’re supposed to do…

…but doing it can be oh so difficult!

So – I’ve lost 13lb in four weeks. Which is flippin’ amazing, frankly. I eat at the wrong times of the day, irregularly, and much prefer being naughty… being “nice” (for the benefit of my diet) is so boring!

Which leads me onto…

Apparently there are some foods that you should avoid when you have a thyroid problem. This isn’t info from my doctor (who doesn’t seem to do anything bar take a blood test and repeat my prescription), but if you google ‘hypothyroid foods to avoid’ you will find A LOT of responses. For example, the University of Maryland Medical Center is a top result of a search, and recommendations include:

  • Avoid foods that interfere with thyroid function, including broccoli, cabbage, brussels sprouts, cauliflower, kale, spinach, turnips, soybeans, peanuts, linseed, pine nuts, millet, cassava, and mustard greens.
  • If you take thyroid hormone medication, talk to your doctor before eating soy products. There is some evidence soy may interfere with absorption of thyroid hormone.

I’ve seen recommendations to avoid kale, gluten and others, and that if you cook the vegetables then it’s ok/ok in moderation/ok 3 times a week…

Now we all know that you can find pretty much anything on the web, and as many “sources” to “prove” or “disprove” a theory… my question is, are there any hypothyroid sufferers out there who have made dietary changes (other than just ‘being good’) that have made a real difference – either in their ability to control/lose weight and/or improve their thyroid function?

(It’s probably a bit premature to be asking questions on my blog… but just in case anyone is reading this… 🙂 )

It shouldn’t matter… but it does

After a number of texts with my Mum today, we’ve committed ourselves to going back to WeightWatchers. Ho hum… I will always be a ‘curvy kate’, but I don’t want to be this curvy anymore. Very soon it will start to properly affect my health: in fact it already does affect my Mum – so the aim is to get down to a comfortable size. I’ll never be a size 10 again, but I can live with that!

Don’t worry – this isn’t going to turn into another blog of dieting woe – there’s already plenty of those around. But it will come up.

I just want to feel more confident, more me, knowing (for example) that I can fasten my belt in a plane seat without having to breathe in for the entire flight…